And those who know Your name will put their trust in You; For You, Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You. Psalm 9:10

I doubt. A lot. I doubt whether or not I’m doing enough for God. I doubt whether or not I’m actually living for Him. I doubt whether or not He will say welcome when I approach His throne at the end of my time on earth and say, “Lord, Lord.”

I doubt.

Because I know I am a sinner. I know I stink at just about everything I do. I know my motives are often selfish. I know I still don’t love He way He loves.

So I doubt. And my doubts have been heavy recently. Real heavy.

By then this… this verse is Psalms…

“For You, Lord, have not forsaken those who seek You.”

And I let out a breath… a breath that I didn’t even realize I was holding.

Because despite all my doubts, I am know Who I want. I know Who I am seeking.

No, I don’t seek him perfectly. I get distracted and lazy. I sleep in, watch too much tv, forget to pray and skip church sometimes. But at my core He keeps gently tugging. And by His grace I keep turning back to Him.

By His grace He is the treasure I truly want.

By His grace I will not be forsaken.

Praise the Lord! My doubts don’t weaken His promises.

How amazing He is!  So…

I will praise You, O Lord, with my whole heart, I will tell of all Your marvelous works. I will be glad and rejoice in You, I will sing praise to Your name, O Most High…I will rejoice in Your salvation. Psalm 9:1-2, 14b

Friends,

As the Lord takes me quietly through His word I am learning something very true: God doesn’t expect perfection out of us; if He did He would have never sent His Son. Our doubt — our less than perfect belief — is real. But His perfect faithfulness is bigger and stronger than our doubt. Let’s stop pretending that we have this Christian thing all figured out. Instead, let’s bring our junk into the light and start living in true fellowship with one another and with our Savior.

Do you have doubts? About what? Share your junk.

Only by grace,

Kelli